Fri, 16 Nov 2007 03:16:35 GMT

so this is my not in a good mood entry.

i don't know why but i have suddenly come down in this mood that nothing in life is really worth anything.
I mean we are all going to die eventually, whether it'd be sooner or later.
So why do we go through all the pain and hardships if in the end we'll all be dead.

But then, while I was thinking about all of this something on tv popped up, as if it was reading my mind or something.
This is what it said "Nothing in life is worth having unless you work hard for it"

God knows that I'm trying to make everything in my life work right now..
I mean for the first time in my life I'm trying to lead a successful life.
I've given up things that I've always enjoyed just so that others could enjoy them for themselves.
I mean hell I have to give up on someone I love just so that he could be happy...
If you knew how i grew up, you would know that that is a very hard task for me.
I take the blame for everything, even when I know that I didn't do a single thing.
Why oh why do i do this to myself... seriously...

gah i don't know what else to say right now..

Sat, 02 Jul 2005 11:47:06 GMT

Sorry guys, this is a Friends only account...

Stephy